For the record, I miss you even when you're around. Your clothes are too damn big, but one day they'll fit. And by then I won't even care because when my mind recalls the memories, I just feel the teethmarks on my skin, The sand between your knees and mine, the ocean's song, and smiling all night.

Just a moment from now, I'll forget and this will be better than dreaming.

I had two dreams, one involved someone I cared for a long time ago, another involved someone I'm close to now. They both had the same outcome. It's ridiculous how much I miss people and more ridiculous how much I don't admit it to myself.

Small deaths are the saddest...

All my friends went to a-kon over the weekend, and what did I do? I fell in love. Not mad love where you can't feel your arms or new love where you feel everything except your arms. It's love that's always been there, that's watched over me and I never knew. And I worry that we won't ever be the same people we were. I worry I won't dream in color anymore. But most of all, I worry I won't produce anything anymore or have something to say. And what I say will probably offend. That is I worry love isn't for me.

I always get home tired from seeing the girls late and I get no sleep before she calls. Like night trains crossing tracks, sometimes we collide in beautiful explosions. When we run out of things to do, we drive. When we run out of things to say, we kiss. She says she likes the way the streetlights stream across my face as we drive. I feel the solftness of her hands and I don't dare look at her. Because if I do, she'll disappear. Is that love or just dreaming? If she can explain it, I can explain the ocean and the waves and we would be perfect, almost.

Movie updates: Saw two awesome movies this week. The First being Ironman which could possibly be the best superhero movie ever made. They totally got his character perfectly minus the excessive drinking part. Also if you're a fan of marvel movies, stay till after the ending credit for a hint of next summer's blockbuster movie. We also watched Legend of the Back Scorpion (The banquet). Yah, not a literal translation of the name lol. But it's basically the Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon people redoing Hamlet the only way they know how. That is making it kick ass and giving it a nice twist in the end.

The Professional: Nothing to update except of course our production studio is working hard at a new project and will possibly have something to show at A-kon. Don't hold your breath though, I'm not even making a guest appearance yet >: D

The Personal: So yeah I lie, cheat and generally steal kisses being the rogue heart that I am. Yesterday I called the person I've deen dating my g/f for lack of a better word/label, just to make things quick. And everyone laughed saying as if I had only one. For the record and my sanity, I do only have one and love isn't my cup of tea.